 Julianne Neely received her MFA degree from the Iowa Writer's Workshop, where she received the Truman Capote Fellowship, the 2017 John Logan Poetry Prize, and a Schupes Fellowship for Poetry. She is currently a Poetics PhD candidate and an English Department Fellow at the University at Buffalo. Her writing has been published in Hyperallergic, VIDA, The Poetry Project, The Rumpus, The Iowa Review and more. WOMAN, IRONING
A man asks me if I have ever seen Picasso’s Woman Ironing. Yes and no, it depends on what you mean, man. I have seen my mother ironing my father’s shirt while he watches TV, no willingness to smile, an unruliness that kicks you in the teeth. Yes, I have seen a friend, a woman’s face through hot steam. I have seen myself growing inside of tree, a root, that’s it. I count them, the women who I have met with polymer fiber materials in their chest. Man, yes, I have seen the painting and no, I have not and did you know, man, that modern doctors suspect Picasso was a sufferer of a disease called Meniere’s and that is where ideas for his paintings came from and leave it to a man to make a billion dollars off of it. I am a woman and yes, I am bitter while I lose my hearing and the room spins, and I tell the neurologist my vision looks like a Picasso painting and he nods because Picasso paintings are so damn famous and mercy never arrives on time to save such grief and I wish I could see straight but moreso I wish I could tell the doctor my vision looks like a Kusama or a Bourgeois or an O’Keefe but no, it looks like a fucking Picasso and so back to you, man, yes, I have seen women ironing and no I have not, but I have seen women give an hour for every minute and I am a woman and I have watched as we have overdrawn a revolution and I have looked in the mirror as if I am not supposed to be there so no, man I have never seen the woman ironing and I never will run alone at night and never forget the sound of men laughing and yes, man, I did see the woman ironing my tongue smooth so I could not scream, and it is the little things I hate about his pictures so small I have nowhere else to store them but my eyes and to hell with men who make art I really mean this go ahead and inhale my saccharine scent and yes, man, of course I have seen the woman ironing of course I have not seen it and if Picasso were here with us, man, in this room I would see nothing but he would see me ironing. How Do You Take Your Coffee, Mr. Armstrong? Twelve men have pressed airy boots on top the pubescent surface of the moon. Forty-six years and twelve men have pressed airy boots on top the pubescent surface of the moon. O irony! O opportunity to construct metaphor of man’s hulk yet ethereal foot traipsing upon the budding face of a womanly moon! Though, one must keep in mind, they say there lives a man in the moon. Who they are I do not know nor care to hear what else they have to say. If Earth’s natural satellite were a man, then surely I would have seen him opening up [jars for lesbian households and wearing] cologne trilling brotherhood. I would have seen the moon breaking things with his mouth. Yet, it is suspect only coming out at night, glaring center attention of a vast sky. Maybe I am seeing it—the man in moon pulling on a cigarette, floating down to a woman walking in the park, twisting his lips with a har har. O Moon Contrite, look at your hands, I wouldn’t eat off them! Perhaps no women have been to the moon because it does not need cleaning yet or because the moon does not want to deal with a bitch on her period or because strawberry daiquiris are not served on the moon or because the moon prefers a man’s firm handshake or maybe the moon just doesn’t want to get married or because [women know nothing about] sports and everyone knows the moon loves a good game of football. One small step for earth, one giant leap for mankind. I wonder what they found on that whaling leap for I wouldn’t know I am still drowning in the deep end of the shallow puddle they jumped. Scientists say more is known about the moon than the deepest parts of ocean. I find this hard to believe. Us women have been bustling across floors of unlit seabed for years bearing pressure on chest until developing gills to breathe and have found something prolific in sinking over flight.
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 Jake Bailey is a schiZotypal experientialist with published or forthcoming work in Abstract Magazine, The American Journal of Poetry, Constellations, Diode Poetry Journal, Guesthouse, Mid-American Review, Palette Poetry, PANK Magazine, Passages North, Storm Cellar, TAB: The Journal of Poetry & Poetics, Tar River Poetry, and elsewhere. Jake received his MA from Northwest Missouri State University and his MFA from Antioch University, Los Angeles. He lives in Illinois with his wife and their three dogs and you can find him on Twitter (@SaintJakeowitz) and at saintjakeowitz.wordpress.com. Dial Z for SchiZo
I peeled my face to fuck the snow I know/ The raptors at the door They want more / To snare the toe and eye The lie is in the loin / The coin / The calf / Sea parts staff Parts per million Lead paint contains what’s part-of-a-balanced-breakfast A mess / Is the mind in retreat I flee See mouth and mound / Found / Can’t forget Not yet Not now They peeled my face to watch the show They know They know Barrier of Barb The body is a barrier of barb For wandering light upon the lawn Citrine cinders coat the expanse in fire Light unseen in jostling maws They declawed the bears But they stare all the same Being is a chore / When there’s more Of you than is sane The body is a barrier of barb Of bare, of sound The driver swerves over root and stem He doesn’t know these grounds give rise to crack We lack whole, the hole is bulbous knife Life is what undoes the shell And hell is wrought in wrangled snarl It mars the making of the soul Your role is cast The body is a barrier of barb The body is the scarier of sins The body is the body is the brain A stain A fucking stain  Catherine Weiss is a poet and artist from Maine. Their poetry has been published or is forthcoming in Tinderbox, Up the Staircase, Fugue, Okay Donkey, Birdcoat, Bodega, petrichor, Counterclock, and elsewhere. Their debut full-length collection Snarl of Wildflower (Game Over Books, 2021) will be published later this year. More at catherineweiss.com. Afterlife
Tonight I wrapped a blanket around my shoulders. I hid in the dining room from a movie I knew would stress me out. I am not writing a song. I am not stitching an embroidery. In general, I like to lie face down on the sofa. I like to eat snow. I like when people remember I exist. I clip my nails. I wear a ring. Sometimes I even like the sound of my own singing voice, sweet and uncertain. My desk faces a window. The reflection: my round face. A downturned mouth. Glasses. I wish I believed in life after death. I could try to brute force my way into faith. It occurs to me I maybe heard somewhere scientific that there is no free will because all events have already happened and time is an illusion. I extrapolate: I will always be me. I extrapolate further: perhaps I will be reincarnated into June of 1986, the same. I like this. I have a nice existence. Sure, I have spent too many nights drunk and calling my mother. And more texting friends who don’t care to hear from me past 8. I can’t stand myself alone. But I would like to keep on going. What about the babies who died babies. They remain in very small loops. The unjustness of the theology I have made up for my private comfort is disturbing. But since when does anything have to be fair to be true. Or believed. If I am its author, I must write it beautiful and also good. I will try again.  Camille Ferguson lives in and loves Cleveland, Ohio. Camille recently graduated from Cleveland State University where she received the Neal Chandler Creative Writing Enhancement Award. Her work is featured or forthcoming in Rabid Oak, Madcap Review, Jam & Sand, Drunk Monkeys, and Okay Donkey, among others. End-of-World Scene in Which We Don’t Make Love with a Backdrop of Fire Because I Have Low Sex-Drive, Depression & We Could Have Avoided This
I’m always babbling about the flowers, flowers from my throat¾but my mouth blooms into wounds. Orchids open like stars; holes open, in the sky, like mouths. I can’t open my heart, speak from it, or get off the couch. I love you, but it’s unimportant. Look, outside—the sky oranges all the way from California. You want more--not of me but from me: my body a distant planet. My touch—'nonexistent.’ I wish, I wish, I wish. I’d love it--to cease--to go out like a light. Decay, destabilize, vaporize. I’d pummel everything in reach like enraged bees, bloated star that I am. I wish it, upon the most beautiful of stars—bright memoirs left streaked on a tar-black canvas. I’m done with passion, it’s emaciating. I wonder if I’ll make it to see us wasted. Outside, sirens sing unending, elated. Maybe, finally, I have been annihilated. I am strange & spent. On bitters brewed of my own pessimism, I drink like the world is ending. Outside—the world is ending. I love you, but it’s unimportant.  Fargo Nissim Tbakhi (he/him) is a queer Palestinian-American performance artist. His writing can be found in Apex Magazine, Strange Horizons, Mizna, Peach Mag, The Shallow Ends, and elsewhere. For My Little Wooden Fisherman
Little carved Laborer, little life- Bringer. You dangle Off the precipice Of meaning. Stranded Without anyone to feed Or teach. Out to sea, Gazan fishermen are restricted To fifteen miles of water. You have No vessel to care for. No kin To lose. You are no island, Little tree. A string alone Is a map to one fish. Together, Knotted in love and conflict, We are maps towards plenty. Little wooden fisherman, I took a piece of bark And carved for you a boat: A place to sit, a way to float. My life is now joined with yours. May the two of us use it well, and learn: Give a man a revolution And he will eat for a day. Teach a man To revolt-- Travel Log: Visit Palestine! after Steven Duong When they let me out of that black site on the Mercury settlement, I roam a spell. Break knuckles for a laugh. Try to phone my mother but no answer. Time stretches out and I do too, I fall in and out of a good thing. Thank God they never fixed the gravity, for my knees are piss-poor after the beatings and the lightness helps. Somebody offers me transport to Earth. Decline. I spend my days drinking and trying to get close enough to someone with a passport to rob them. No luck. Days were, I used to be honest. Days changed. Try my mother again. Still no answer. I wonder if she’s floating somewhere outside of range. Visit Abu Khaled outside New Jerusalem. He is dying so I pray with him, then pocket some cash when he’s asleep. So something broke in me. So what. My feeling is God never wanted me on this planet and so he isn’t paying too close attention. Back at the bar someone asks me about mercy. I say it is like ghosts a thing you want to believe in but never can feel you deserve. They tell me no it’s a drink, have I tried it. No. I sleep the sleep of a bad person. I believe the things they say of me on this planet of cells so close to the sun. In dreams I see my mother aboard the good ship Palestine A bucket of bolts but it’s ours and it drifts, it moves And I’m running towards the port but my knees split like knuckles Somebody asks me about home, I say I’ve never tried it Mom’s at the porthole smiling like she’s happy And I’m at the door fumbling through my wallet, hoping I’ve held onto enough to go inside and stay
SO WE GOT THREE THINGS GOING. WE GOT SOME GRAPE JELLY,
SOME HOMINY GRITS, AND AN EXTENSION CORD. Frequently people be impressed with some shit that I did that isn’t impressive For three hours a week, my nana in her usher uniform People like to fabricate nouns so white you can’t work in them No one rouged her cheek, none ran her or her stockings Like publishing Or stepped on her tennis shoes, sweated her lapel A cloth I have to launder once I wipe my face has no stamina Her man was dead or not your business I come to the table up, washed like I already ate, painted like I already slaughtered Baking soda somewhere seething among my bequests Frequently people mean to look like (that’s they) money Framed by a wicker-back I’m spooning Bleach and black share an etymological base sugar sheer as pestled glass from stainless Spent hours cleaning out, daydreaming cresting waves Stayed knives of a starched collar, whole moons stuck in the lobes of By the time we make love I’m exhausted and starving A stunning lover A contrived still life Who fingers cherry entrails With hive of muscadines While two thick peaches cleave to their pits And six-piece bone china set A set designed Daisies spectate from a standing planter box Xs and checkers of decadence rebranded as evident style suggest Sprays of metal petals, unwilting color happens at crossings Madam, I came with the house If you burnished all this we’d have a different conversation I mean shit I could go with it, too AND I LOATHED MY BEAUTY FOR THAT. this was always sposed to be a story of carnage. copper stripped from a basement. walls barged down the river, ruddy as the stain on the sister’s seat. [1] that day in the rain & the frame still smoking. in the chainlink fence’s revenge, it split her sole. rust grit & brick dust gripped in her prints. brush hisses in dense brown hush. horseshoe kicks what you tryna say (trap shut.) into snowbank the cricket twinkle renders. bring in the big evening. in its black continuity, we are outnumbered & maneuvered by memory. her beauty excruciates, emphasizes the cardinally directed reflections affixed to Marlene Clark’s face. we stop the motion of molten metal & beg it, frozen, reveal us intrinsically. the child born (e.g., Rosso), as creation, is a solicited solidification of interior crisis, a temporary & meaningful clot. someone chooses ruin for the wood. from that shot to this, both a cross cut & rip cut in which classical sculpture is an anachronism & a parallel becoming: [2] grave(n) woman / “wonderful girl.” “barbie doll,” the father calls the mother’s portrait: blush background, collarbones, curls, tinted lip. easy, the sands of his pharynx romance: waterfall, rose furls, cinnamon stick. this blood coupling’s a because of me, its symmetry & fuckery. thou art with me & once fine & ordinarily poured your good years into systems of profit, piecemeal pocket- booking stolen feed. grief, grief, relentless thrift. you suffocating burgundy apology. ----------------------- [1] What does it mean to me to be firstborn versus the first conceived? Little kidneys. I coax my fuel out of roasted beans. Often I write like a fossil, meatless & downplaying what died to get it done. [2] Gunn blackens “Western” time, or Gunn restores flux to the Real amid a fabrication of narrative etiology.
Weniger, aber besser (Less, but better)
It’s fun to blame ourselves for things. It’s a relief. The puff of big dreams shrivels back to normal size. You think, Probably not. Probably I won’t get that done and it won’t matter. I’m not up for that today. It’s great to wrap our arms around No and stay put. I’m fine with failure. Only you know what you didn’t do. Palestine My grandmother knew the real treasure of the world was a pink line on the horizon. Owned by none, commanded by none. Every evening she climbed a rickety wooden ladder barefooted to the flat roof of her very simple home to gaze out over stolen hillsides and valleys and smile. The valleys were small next to the sky.  Keith Leonard is the author of the poetry collection Ramshackle Ode (Mariner/Houghton Mifflin Harcourt, 2016). His poems have appeared recently or are forthcoming in The Believer, New England Review, and Ploughshares. He lives in Columbus, Ohio. Jukebox
To have a mind as categorized as a cupboard of song, to reach into a dark place and usher forth the exact tone of your infant's yawn, to hear completely your gone mother's bedtime song. And then to click the memory back into place. To even lift the same song twice.  CAConrad has been working with the ancient technologies of poetry and ritual since 1975. They are the author of Amanda Paradise, forthcoming from Wave Books in 2021. Their book While Standing in Line for Death won a Lambda Literary Award. They also received a Creative Capital grant, a Pew Fellowship, and a Believer Magazine Book Award. They teach at Columbia University in New York City and Sandberg Art Institute in Amsterdam. Please view their books, essays, recordings, and upcoming events at bit.ly/88CAConrad 2 Shard our little places within are not dungeons remember remember astronomers point satellites into space the military points them down at us the inverse relationship between love we offer and what we give this on and off button is another opportunity to believe there are only two choices this too must end 4 Shard we wanted this thing crossing between us worming under foot a flavor revealing itself to those who open the mouth fully a taste tasting us back wide eyed before we learn to catch words midair snorting lines of coke off the biggest cock detecting additional minutes hidden in the cave we forge of one another 7 Shard
he said breathe like you read your poems what the hell does that mean then suddenly I'm breathing it look at our hands baked into being by a fleeting magic bark with dogs to let the neighborhood know you can go to the address knock all you want no one is there now where the exit signs are burned out the preexisting condition is not cancer but the glass of polluted drinking water  A Bronx, New York native, Roya Marsh is a nationally recognized poet, performer, educator and activist. She is the Poet in Residence at Urban Word NYC and works feverishly toward LGBTQIA justice and dismantling white supremacy. Roya’s work has been featured in Poetry Magazine, Flypaper Magazine, Frontier Poetry, the Village Voice, Nylon Magazine, Huffington Post, The Root, Button Poetry, Def Jam’s All Def Digital, Lexus Verses and Flow, NBC, BET and The BreakBeat Poets Vol 2: Black Girl Magic (Haymarket 2018). In Spring 2020, MCD x FSG Originals published Roya Marsh's dayliGht, a debut collection of experimental poetry exploring themes of sexuality, Blackness, and the prematurity of Black femme death--all through an intersectional feminist lens with a focus on the resilience of the Black woman. for (insert name)
never knowing how to label a dream until you want to tell your children apart you'll forget how to tell your children apart not wanting your baby to die on a cross like (insert name) or in a cross walk like (insert name) not wanting him to be like (insert name) lying in middle of the street not another (insert name) crying he can't breathe or (insert name) shot at the doorstep 'cause black fist against door equates fist against body 'cause guns ring out more than doorbells or (insert name)'s brains splattered in that alley 'cause a cell phone could be a lot of things in the dark but an unregistered 9mm semiautomatic fired over the shoulder can only be one thing an eraser a broken taillight in broad daylight a reaper eye contact, a counterfeit bill a death wish you ain't gon let your son go out like how they let (insert name) run just far enough to think himself safe before they shot you won't let the last time you see him whole be like when they threw (insert name) in the back of that van hands cuffed behind his back like (insert name) but he still managed to shoot himself like (insert name) his spine in pieces like (insert name) you want him home like putting curfew on (insert name)'s soul - too black to be out at night you ain't gonna be asking the news why they say (insert name) when they really mean (insert name) got Obama and Kamala callin' us (insert name) like they don't sit around callin' him (insert name) 'cause isn't that the right word? ‘cause you know ALL lives matter except (insert name) how lucky am i, to have (insert name) in my bloodline holy the way (insert name) keeps pushing my pen from heaven i flap my gums show the world the fist in my throat in honor of (insert name) but my mother begs me home from the protest says she can't go through what she went through with (insert name) says this hype over (insert name) will die just like (insert name) and i tell her i'd rather die for (insert name) a million times than die like (insert name) once |
