Lyd Havens lives in Boise, Idaho. Their work has previously been published in Ploughshares, The Shallow Ends, and Tinderbox Poetry Journal, among others. Lyd will graduate with their BFA in Creative Writing from Boise State University in 2021.
I only mis-gender myself when Fleetwood Mac comes on
I’m not a woman, but part of me
is always going to be a teenage girl,
screaming into rivers and watching
herself weep in the mirror. Sometimes
my hair grows like a curse word.
My lipstick smears, and my teeth
find a new hysteria to fantasize about.
I still identify
as a spiteful bitch. The gold dust settles
on my cheeks, but I don’t. The tables
and now my father is afraid of me.
Damn my fury, damn my forgiveness.
I’ve learned to fight like an anarchist racehorse--
my legs will give out before my heart does.
When I was still a girl, I cut all my hair off
in mourning. Twice. When I was still a girl,
I found my grandmother’s childhood braid
framed in an attic. She sliced it off herself
while angry at her own father. I sleep
with scissors next to my bed, just in case.
I practice a running start. I tell the mirror
what I want to tell my father:
you will never get away from the sound
of the [ ] that hates you.
DT McCrea- On occasion of my own death
Noor Hindi- Unkept
Linda Dove- Mid-Life with Teeth
Stephen Furlong- I Don't Know About You, but Mostly I Just Want to be Held
Dorothy Chan- Because You Fall Too Fast Too Hard
Kevin Latimer- MIRAGE
Taylor Byas- Rooftop Monologue
Matt Mitchell- FINE LINE TRIPTYCH
Todd Dillard- Will
Heidi Seaborn- Under The Bed
Heather Myers- A Rainbow, Just For A Minute
Donna Vorreyer- In The Encyclopedia of Human Gestures
Conor Bracken- THE WORST THING YOU CAN DO TO A MAN
Ben Purkert- 2 Poems
Emma Bolden- What Women's Work Is
Chelsea Dingman- Lockdown Drill
Raych Jackson- Pantoum for Derrion Albert from the Plank
Elliot Ping- in the eighth grade
ii. dance moves
D.A. Powell- Sneak