"Dear H" by Ben Togut
Ben Togut is a queer poet and singer-songwriter from New York City. His recent work is published or forthcoming in Mumber Mag, The Offing, Hobart, and elsewhere.
I scrub flies from the shower,
dark shapes from cheap tile.
I can’t enjoy autumn—any moment you’ll text.
I make playlists to fill the quiet.
I listen to Joni but I only think
of summer, your easy smile.
Do you remember that day
in Iowa City, the light in the trees?
Today I learned you ended your life.
Today I went back to the old house,
stood at the same intersection
where I stood on so many mornings.
At the edge of your life, did you search
the night for meaning, for one last star?
I lie awake. I wonder how we fare
in this project of living.
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